XOXOXOXO

Coughing my lungs out for mths alr.
Not recovering but getting worst.
Wheezing lungs, slpless nights.
Its wearing me out.
I refuse the doc cos i dread swallowing pills &mixtures.
Tonight Zirca with Karuna darl &cherie will cure me im sure.
I need booze.
***
Love is not very far, it's just that sometimes, you tend to look in a distance

Im your rockstar baby :)

Sometimes you have to put walls around you, not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you.
Don't miss the chances life is giving you to spend with the people you love...Remember that in this life, there are no rewinds. ps-Zirca tmr night with karuna darling is lovee :)

Rot the day at home today. Literally decomposing man.
Going to head out to BBDC alr thou.
Was sourcing on private schools in spore cos im hoping to study agn.
Decided to take up human resource instead of tourism.
However thr are some module that overlaps with my previous dip and the thot of studying them all over agn turns me off.
But now the prob is,
What school to get into this time?

Zouk Out 2009

Friday was Zirca
This morning was ZOUK OUT 2009!!!! :)Went down to Siloso beach @ 4amWaited for the highly anticipated ARMIN VAN BUUREN!Everyone went nuts upon his arrival.Played songs like man on the run, ashley, broken tonight, never say never, unforgivable etc.Songs that are really awesome.His set is really amazing and althou i couldnt breathe properly, had to squeeze, hot & sticky everywhr.Its all worth it.Every single moment was.He is super charming and interaction with the crowd was great.DASHING is the term for him.Nxt up would be gatecrasher that im looking fwd to :)now im suffering frm super ultra lack of slp. ps more pics can be found on my Fb ;)

Bye guys im going to BBDC!Ignore my bro in the pic haha
Zouk Out 2009 see you thr!
&guys u dont have to send me mails with ur hp no attached to it cos i will not get back to you :)

My new wallet :)
Mad hot pink is love!
Oh, and great.
Im ill agn.
Giddy spells and to add on to that, the cab driver jus now drove like some asshole and thru out the whole ride i feel puke-ish.
&now, i really wanna vomit.
I think its time to be more dettached to clubbing.
I gotta watch my health, its failing too much, too often.

Im lousy.Im a total loser.I only cry.I know all these.I uds im all these to you.would you be less cruel to spell it out on my face?Somethings need not to be spoken.Actions are clear enough and i believe i can see clearly.

New Moon date with love

It feels really good to be out on a date with baby 1 on 1, on a peaceful wkday on the streets of orchard :)
Blissful is the word.
Caught New moon & thou baby isnt a big fan of the twilight saga he still caught it with me.
Thanks honey!
Robert pattinson as usual looking @ his best and those alluring eyes can look right thru hearts of viewers.
Many must have gont nuts over him &im no exception :)
However, baby is still the most lovable for being so silly.
He told me instead of being a werewolve or vampire.
He wants to be a bear with giant paws and he's gonna kill those bloodsuckers with a sweep of his powerful paws.
ISNT HE SO ADORABLE?
Thats my boy for u, my one and only love :)

Active night with Activa @ Zirca!

Look at our smiles and you can tell how great our night @ Zirca was :)
Activa in the house and it was really a very great night.
Had some of my faves played and was happily singing along 'Find yourself'.
Great track and i've been secretly hoping it could be played eerytime i attend other trance Dj's gig, but none of them played that song.
So u can guess how elated i was right?
Baby was super happy cos among all the trance Djs' gig we went, none had great emo tracks and Activa was the only one who played tons of emo songs.
He had the crowd jumping and yelling @ his progressive songs.
He had the crowd raising hands and going all down with his emo songs.When he's leavinf me and baby were like so down man hahah
He's great, but the greatest is Armin van buuren who is performing @ Zoukout real soon!
:)&baby's gonna be a happy boy im sure.UR SO ADORABLE BABY!Ps: more pictures on Fb, im lazy to upload all photos on blogger cos its damn slow!

My xmas present for baby :)
Ohyah and parents are planning to move!
Hope its gonna be of a better location this time.

Psy Trance in the hse @ Zirca!

28/11John Oo Fleming @ Zirca was really brilliant.His set made the crowd jump non-stop and had everyone putting thr hands in the air shaking and grooving to the heavy and fast bassline.See the last pic?Result of dancing non-stop in killer heels.Dint even wanna stay long in Rebel when im suppose to the r&b queen.Got kinda wasted hence me &baby went off earlier.Totally enjoyed myself :)This wkend was superb, had my share of partying and great food.Eating madly loads of food but enjoying it hahahGotta watch the scales alr thou!Well, the bottomline here is, wkends are always fun with baby :)&tmr sushi tei!HAHAHA EATING AGN!ps : Gd luck baby for ur new posting!

Thursday was Dbl O with the usuals :)
Ytd was stay home fri cos tonight we're gonna party!
Having a bad flu &it sucks.
Been eating alot lately &baby encourages it telling me im too skinny and it doesnt look nice on me.
True?
Well, i dont find myself skinny &i think if im fat, i'll look so much uglier.
Looking thru my photos frm 2yrs ago and i realise i do look different.
Any one taking my stand?

Happy 16th baby :)

&my love for u hasnt decrease in the slightest bit since 27/07/08.

xoxoxo

It feels good to have online frens telling me they saw me &i look prettier in flesh!
Out with mum to get her hair cut &shopped arnd with her :)
Feels odd without baby thou
Poor boy is still doing shit army stuff OT today..
Hope he can get enuf rest tonight to prevent him frm falling ill agn.
Well, im sipping on bitter-sweet orange juice.Shiokness is awesome!
:) hearts all over the world.

Even thou i know love comes with no insurance but loads of risks.
I'll still plunge down the bottomless pit of darkness trying to shine some light onto it.
Jus like how i fell for u since 1yr3mts ago, im still falling.
I'll nvr try to withdraw myself cos i lack of the ability to.
Even if one day u changed, or u walk out of me.
I'll still be in that bottomless pit waiting for the day to be save.
Not by any other ppl, but you.Baby, ur nvr a mistake but a blessing.&i'll nvr regret.

loving you more

I dread Sundays the most cos it marks the end to wkends bliss.
Fruitful wkend although i dint get to club :)
Seem to forge a even closer bond with baby and im sure he feels the same.
Well, all i can say is we're really going stronger.
Can feel it can see it.
Fruits of our labour i choose to call it.
& see Jess& Jervis. arent they cute?
But i noe baby is still the cute-est & hot-est :D

Long wk with baby boy!

After parting with yun on wed, me and baby's long wkend begins :)
However he's ill and hence it was stay home wk for the both of us.
Spend really quality time tgt thou!
He's recovering and we're gonna head down for jervis bday celebration
Will update agn!
loves

Im highly addicted to Yami Yogurt!
Haha and i smell a rat.
Sth fishy is going on for sure.
:)

With Karuna @ Zouk last sat :)
That dear girl finally send me our pics
hahah i look damn ugly.

Touring arnd the streets of Ochard!

Travel arnd the whole of Ochard with my bestie :)
Meeting her later and tmr as well!hahaha im so addicted to meeting her nowadays!
But ofcos i miss baby too!XOXOXOXO

Overloaded wkend ends

Club agn on Saturday.
This time @ Zouk with the sweets.
Got in horribly late as we're held up @ WCP for Jc's bday celebation.
Hell of a wkend and i can see its taking a toll on my health.
Booze, late nights every wk craziness.
Gotta kick the addiction.
Loads of pics to be uploaded but im really lazy, go to Fb for more.
Crashing into my pillows soon, can barely open my eyes as im typing here.
ps : 2012 is great shld watch it!

Fri the 13th @ Powerhse

Ah liang KO before baby had the chance to hear his fave song :(
Had a great night thou!
Almost KO too but hey!
IM STRONG! HAHAHAHA

BANG BANG IM FIRED.

Thanks meiyun for acc me the whole day:)
Did felt better.
&we got the same hairdo! BANGS!
Really hate it but since my BFF has it i shall jus stop grumbling :)
Hate bangs alot but i dunno man.
Stress? Sad? i dunno. jus wanna go nuts and scream. Grats BFF, happy for you bout new job &im sure we'll meet more!LOVE YOU!
im feeling so upset now.this emptiness sets in.&it cuts like a knife.perhaps i expected to much frm myself.and the fall hurts.

Selling this 2 tone dress for $28
Interested pls either text me or mail me
Thanks!
Gotta rush! gonna meet bff for shopping session :)

A sweet monday night with love aft work :)

Thanks for eating so much for my sake when u dont eat that much most of the time,
Thanks for accompanying me shopping although u dread it alot,
Thanks for being so sweet all these while.
&thanks for letting me have the honour to be the woman nxt to you.
i love you :)Enjoyed my monday alot and like you, this day will be etched on my heart deeply.

Last min decision to head down St James to party on Fri.
Had a awesome night & the aftermath of dancing on the podium all night long is achy muscles everywhr :(
Saturday had us catching the movie Paranormal activities.
Horrifying and it gives me the creeps.
Perhaps due to the fact that the hauntings in the movie were more close to home and got me paranoid.
Cool new concept i must say.
Sunday is here and tmr back to work.
Seems like a long wkend for me considering i started taking off frm thurs last wk so i shall not grumble.
Cant wait for my break to come!BABY LETS LOOK FWD TO THE WK OF TOTALLY COOL LIFE!

Gathering @ Fang's with the sweets!

Took the day off and made the best out of it :)
&this new cig frm marlboro is super cool!See the green ball in the filter?Depress it when smking and experience cool ice blast, try it!Bloated frm sumptous dinner @ Fang's.THANKS & I MISS U GUYS A HELL LOT!tmr on leave too yipee!

Mad tiring wk.If there's like the most hardworking student award given in BBDC,the winner have got to be me.Monday knock off early and reach BBDC @ 615pm and was thr for 3 session of diff lessons till 1040pm.Tues aft work went for a pract lesson.Today went for another pract lesson.To alot ppl out thr u might be thinking its nth but trust me, its taxing considering the fact that i have to travel during peak hrs and driving requires alot of concentration.But im a lucky girl cos i've got a doting daddy :)He's so sweet to fetch me to work and also home frm BBDC.THANKS!Although im really physically and mentally worn out, seeing my progress in driving makes me feel fucking awesome and somehow the feeling is so rewarding that it acts like a motivation, a push to make me go stronger.Haven been working hard and my wrk wk is gonna end tmr :)Friday i took leave jus to rest and due to the face that since i've alr been so heck care @ work might as well do it till the end.Tmr heading over to Joofang's place for a mini gathering &im so looking fwd!&not to forget, my boyf is forever so cute and sillyLOVE YOU BABY BOY!

Scarlet Night @ SupperClub

30oct fri(night)Another clubbing session.
But this time MY BFF IS WITH ME!
Virgin trip to SupperClub was pretty cool considering having to party as VIPs.
Enjoyed it totally &Stef, THANKS:)
If u notice everyone was cladded in black cos its the dresscode for that night's event.
So well, i present to you the party ppl in black!***Caught My Sister's Keeper & its really awesome, touching and tears jerking.looking for a great sentimental movie den you gotta go catch this.Gonna crash into my pillows alrNIGHTS & ENJOY HALLOWEEN !

Last day for my cupcakes @ MOE

HAPPY BDAY POPS! LOVE YOU DADDY! :)
Fri 30oct (Day)
gonna miss you cupcakes =(
MUACKSSS THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!
Dad pick me up aft work &we headed to a restaurant for his bday celebration.Love you daddy and ur the man i love the most in this world &thanks for overly pampering me!CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU DADDY!

Love my cute purple shoes!Tmr staying over wif Joofang my cupcake :)CANT WAIT LAH!!Thursday is daddy's adv bday celebration :)Friday is gonna be party party party!

What if ur so tired to move on?
What if u see paths infront of you filled with thorns?
Would u still walk?BLAME IT ALL ON ME U MOTHERFUCKERS!!GROW UP AND STOP GIVING ME VERDICTS.LOOK AT HOW PATHETIC U GUYS ARE?
BLAME LAH BLAME ME.IF U GUYS HATE ME SO MUCH, KILL THE FUCK OUT OF ME OK?FUCK U ALL LOWLIFE DOGS!

Impromptu Decision on a sat night :)
Brilliant music, great company.
LOVE YOU KARUNA WE WILL CLUB AGN YEAH!
HAHAHAHAHA
&i'll always be on an even keel when things happen.

Cough for a wk plus alr.
taxing, hectic, tiring.
dad comment that i look haggard and weak.
zzz

aww baby, how can i love u lesser?

Dj Pierre in da house!
Zirca & Rebel on fri night 16/10/09.
Lazy to upload other pics, find them on my Fb if ur int.
& aft coughing for the 9th day i went to the doc and now i've got some nasty pills to eat which dissolves in water and taste like some witch brew.Mad coughin is driving me to my grave.&i miss my honeyball alr.

I'll update this space tmr night.
:)
this is a long wkend for me and honey and i've taken the day off tmr!
yoohoo no work tmr feels great man.
and im going to slp with baby in my arms=)NIGHTS!

Keep hopes high.
Baby cheer up!!
I know its really sucky but somethings in life u jus cant have control over it.Be contend with wat u have and when u start to grumble, think abt ppl who are in deeper shit than you.Be grateful that at least u have me!
Be positive!
I will be thr for u at ur darkest moments and be ur light.
When ur roads are rough and uneven i will be thr to hold u and walk u thru.
When u lose your way i will be ur map that guides you.
At the end of the day, i will be still the one u see nxt to you and holding on to ur hand.
No matter wat ultimately its you who have to pluck up that courage u have and face it.
Some setbacks are made to make u a stronger person.
iIstead of getting upset over it why not savour every happy moment u have now and prevent urself frm regreting later?
When ur moody the ppl arnd u who loves you will also be upset.
If u cant swallow the facts, slowly chew on it and gradually u will be able to swallow it.All you need is time, haven u been thru worst?
Trust me baby cos i feel exactly like how u do when i got the news.
Lets face this obstacle tgt shall we?
And perhaps we'll emerge stronger and better.
take it as a test, god's will
:)
SMILE MY DEAR!

We're so madly in love.
dont you agree baby?
Lets keep it up!
:)
cant stop loving you.falling down the pit since i met you..
and i nvr wanna come out of it.

I blame myself for screwing this wkend up.
All thanks to me.
Fri was thanks to a appearance of a nasty person whom i hate to bump into, hence my mood was spoilt.
Althought i hate her alot, a part of me is envious of her.
Sometimes i'd even hope im half as good as her.
Damn me.
Sat was like non stop arguement btw me and baby but at least we caught surrogates.
Bottomline is, i feel very bad.
Sorry baby, nxt wk i'll make it up to you.thanks for staying wif me and being so nice to me.and i noe this time i have to really treat u like a king alr.cos i noe ur worth it.Ohyah Pizzahut has a new addition to their delivery menu!Some subway-like sandwich that taste awesome.try it!and sorry no nice pics cos im jus so ugly.

Look at what my lovely colleagues JooFang & Joan are doing at work
:)
FIGHT FOR FOOD.
MAD FUNNY! HAHAHAHAHAH
Love them so much, super sweet stuff :)
frm making me feel comfy to sharing food etc .Today when they know that im waiting for baby's sms(which dint came)They acutally sms-ed me.
&even thou they know it'll only make me happy for that split sec, they still did it to make me feel better.
Arent they my sweetie cupcakes?
Really grateful to them i mean all of them.
Frm first day of work till now i really felt so much better.
LOVE U ALL MY LIL CUPCAKES!
:)

Ah Long's bday celebration @ Dbl O
:)
Hope he enjoyed it totally hahaha
&aft 2 nights of madness, i feel superly uncomfy.
U can call me the all time drunkard peeps
Over crazy nights have to cease.
Nxt wkend : movies and dinner :)
Im decent ok!

Zirca is uber fun and Rebel is big boo boo.
Record breaking first big injury in a club.
hahaha and I WILL NVR DRINK CHIVAS EVER AGN!

Im jaded.
I wanna talk, you refuse to hear.
I wanna complain and grumble,
You only want to hear things u like.
Who is gonna look at me and hear every word im gonna say.
Who is gonna talk to me and make me laugh?
I love to talk and express myself but u turn ur back on me time and time agn.
When i need you, ur always not there.
Maybe u just want me to suffer in silence.
Im feeling so upset yet nobody is thr to offer his/her hand.
Where are u my real soulmate?
cos i know ur defintely not.&i cant rely on u cos it only makes me disappointed and breaks my heart.You changed.im no longer wanted and needed.maybe i need to learn how to live for myself and forget u.singlehood might be easier.

Happy 14th to us :)
tmr comes monday blue :(
going to hit the gym wif joan den to office!
wanna be lightweight!
&baby, i feel so lucky to be urs,
hope i have to fortune to stay in love wif u as ur gf for this lifetime.
thanks for all the love u showered on me for this past 14 mths.
my love for u has always been so strong and up till now, its still going very strong and it jus goes up.cant stop loving u cos ur the only one i wanna love and everything done for u is worthwhile.i simply adore u honey :)

I dont need someone who doesnt need me to want him.

I dont need someone who would push me to another without showing signs that he mind, and Tells me things like.its so him to let "supposingly loved ones" go by shooing them away.

If that is u.

This is me.

Take it, or

Leave it.

&i'll start learnin to talk to others instead of u.

hear others out instead of u.

rely on others instead of u.

and smile bigger cos i noe, im appreciated and respected.

One word for wkends.
ALCOHOLIC.
but still im enjoying it :)
long wkends gone and tmr comes the boring work wk agn.
argh.
cant wait for wkends agn!
baby, i feel like clubbing agn hehe
:D

ANDY MOOR GIG @ ZOUK WAS TOTALLY BRILIANT!
Enjoyed every moment of it!
Progressive trance blasted thru the speakers and everyone was high on ecstasy.
Dancing shaking screaming in appreciation and the whole crowd jus went berserk.
but for ppl like capt & baby they were really banging hard for something emo frm andy.
BUT I LOVE THE MUSIC HE PLAYED THE WHOLE NIGHT :)
hahahah prog trance is really the thang peeps!
CANT WAIT FOR THE NXT DJ TO ROCK MY WKENDS AGN!

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you

Look at how many pills i gotta swallow over a annoying toothache.The pain is driving me nuts deeply annoyed.If 5days aft medication the pain doesnt subside, i'll have to go back for a Xray.Im sure its definitely not sinus that caused it, according to the retard looking dentist.&babyI MISS YOU!tmr my honeyball!:)

Work Sucks.
Hp drop into the toilet bowl.
Feeling sicker.
Thanks baby for picking me up aft work :)
U really chased away the blue-ness if monday.
Muacks!
Tmr is gonna be another long day =(
OT.....sighs.

Dear readers, im gonna be real busy hence my blog will be sorta neglected..

ofcos i'll still try my very best to squeeze time out for blogging so hope u guys will still stay tune here :)

Loves!

Enjoy a great wk ahead!

Im ill :(

Fancy me for being sick when its wkends & im gonna start work on mon.

Bad timing.

&tmr im gonna be on the move.

its killing me.

Arghhhhh.

FUCK IT.

Sis's ROM with Ryan!

09 - 09 - 2009
Sis's ROM was really touching and im superly happy for her and ryan :)
hope they'll lead very very blissful life frm now on!
CONGRATS SIS & RYAN!!Grumbling time agn hahahha!i got selected for the job in MOE and im starting work on monday.feeling apprehensive bout this whole thing man.like no lunch buddy hafta eat alone emo-ly,no smking khaki too =(pray hard that thr wont be OT daily else im gonna cry.Well, no matter wat im going for it and i hope its not as bad as wat i picture it to be!I CAN DO IT!:)

Baby pls take care of urself!!
pls dont fall sick ok?
&ur always on my mind everytime, everywhr and watever im doing im always thinkin bout u like some lovesick girl! HAHAHAH
dont worry bout me too!
:)
MUACKSSSSSS

05 sept 2009
The party ppl :)
Well, not gonna be free to update my blog that often i guess.
will be working really soon.
tmr will be going for an interview @ MOE &seriously hope i can get the job!
good luck to me and be sad for myself cos i've to say byebye to free days and waking up late =(
&baby, thanks for all the support and for standing by my side when things went really wrong.
nth can describe the love i have for u but still i love u.
to others it may be jus another 3 words, but to me and you i believe it has more meaning den wat it actually means.
This rs that we share is not gonna be so fragile anymore.

Do you love me just as much as how i love u?
Is the love u have for me still so much?
Pls dont let me down...
I hate the feeling of disappointment and feeling so imperfect in ur eyes.
I'd do anything to not exp that kinda of feelings ever agn.
Sometimes u need to take a step back, look at me and see those good things i have instead of looking elsewhr for others' good pts.
Flaws come with every human.
If i have flaws, its cos im only a human,
Then i believe others'd have it too.
But, why cant u see flaws in others' but me?
perhaps distance is really a kind of beauty......

Thanks babygirl for the present :)
LOVES.
New bag!
Dirt cheap,
great catch.
ps tmr no work! hahahaha

If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating heart before i lose you.


If you only knew
How many times i counted all the words that went wrong


If you only knew
How i refuse to let you go.



If you only knew
I don't regret any days I
Spent or nights we shared.


The only thing that I believe in is you.

I hate my eyes.
somehow i wish i'd just go under the knife and make my eyes right.
but being plastic doesnt pleases baby neither does it make me feel 'REAL'ly pretty so well...
Wanna tell everyone that i have a wonderful baby :)
He's mine!
KEEP UR HANDS OF MY BOY! HAHAHAH
hahaha currently blogshoppin arnd and $$$ flying away too.:(
cant resist shoppin temptations AT ALL SERIOUSLY.
Wednesday working @ citilink.
working is seriously sth that i dread ALOT.
On a lighter note baby say he will pick me aft work!!
AM I SO LUCKY OR WAT?!
AHAHAHAHAHAH
&im looking fwd to the wkends!
DRINK, DANCE, HAPPY!
Where else?
:)

Happy 19th to myself!
Check out frm hotel back to baby's crib.
missing the hotel days alr...
awwwww
and baby, im so grateful :)
thanks for this awesome wkend and gift.
i really enjoyed myself to e max and i hope u did too.
pls take care baby, wont wan you to fall ill.
spendid night with u today too!
muacks.
im gonna love you honey ball.
ur always my darling boy!
:)

Day 2
Breakfast buffet.
Sleep
Spa (thumbs up!)
Room service(horfun &cabonara)Jacuzzi
TCC @ The Pier
Room service(finger sandwiches)
Baby was so totally shag out.
Really enjoyed this whole getaway.
muacks baby, ur so loved by me :)Thanks!

Checked in @ Furama Waterfront - 230pm.
Kenny Roger for lunch @ Great World.
Off to party @ DBL O
Sleep - 430am
"Thanks baby for accompanyin me although u dint enjoy. "
Love you so much!

Double the gore, Double the fun!
Love you all classmates, u guys are so wonderful!
And baby today doesnt seem like a nice 13th lets hope the wkends are better yeah?
nvrtheless i still love u jus as much.ps: Last hse of the left was awesome, super great for gore-loversbutfinal destination sucks big time.even in 3D dint make it any better.tmr gonna check in check in :)gonna enjoy my wkends so much!how bout u?adios!

happy 13th mth anni to us!

Happy 13th to us baby!

do u rmb?...it seems to be getting colder.i dont wish to see history repeating itself agn.baby, ur not like him right?

3 more days my 19th....

Still my all time fave :)baby says he wants to be called 'honey ball' instead of 'honey boy'.isnt he awfully cute?&its 2more days to 13th love,5 more days to my 19th :)but im feeling ill...massive headache, annoying sore throat and flu.deeply mad.


while some girls like to immerse themselves in sugar coated lies, i prefer to hear the cold hard truth.
but somehow, some truth pricks like a needle and leaves you bleeding.however, i want the truth.cos i dont ever want to live in self deceit self denial like how i used to.god, pls dont make a fool out of me anymore.

travelling madly

Study seesion wasnt productive for me=(
Classmates were like so hardworking while im stoning all e way.Felt really slpy due to the cloudy weather.Makes me wanna cuddle in bed whole day!Its all eng kiat fault man.Of all places he chose woodlanes.DAMN.Anyway sentosa plan has been abort... Instead Park hotel CQ is the thing!!Booked the sexy hotel room alr!I've always wanted to try that hotel cos it looks really great and its near to all the places whr i can satisfy my liquor craving :DNear to the extend like just below the hotel is DBL O?HEEEES!I CANT WAIT BABY.LETS LOOK FWD HONEY BOY!&tmr.......SUSHI TEI!:) my bday is coming!yoohoo!!

fun with web cam!

im like running late alr!
going over to deepak place to study with classmates but i overslpt!!
but im still having fun webcaming :D
im feeling so sleepy man!!!

SMILE DARLINGS ITS GONNA MAKE UR DAY BETTER!

pre bday celebration!

Thanks to all of u who came and made my friday a really wonderful one=)
Deepak, jon, karuna, chen lok &kim :)
LOVE YOU GUYS!
thanks for taking care of me when i was drunk.
we really shld hang out agn okieeee??
MUACKS!

“No man is an island,” they say. Relationships are life’s real treasures. We all need that for different kinds of reasons for we, human beings are made to be social beings. We are made to be with one another, but there is one who we really cherish most in this life, our “partner”.



Relationships are as erratic as life is. It may last long, or just for few days. No one knows when a relationship, that is supposed to be treasured, suddenly ends in a break-up.



During collage years, most students already experienced how to love and how is it to be loved by a partner in a relationship. Some may have traumatic experiences but some have nice ones. Most of the traumatic experiences are the ones who are classified “short term relationships”. Why are they traumatic? Maybe, because of some mistakes one committed during his/her relationship. It may be because of the unfaithfulness of one to the other or misunderstandings that led to serious quarrels. Immature relationships may also lead to a bad one, especially when one feels that they are not anymore compatible with each other or when one isn’t serious at all and is only interested about the term “girl/boyfriend” without considering the consequences.



These short term relationships may lead to certain scenes one might not expect in a love story such as illness due to depression or certain acts of suicide, particularly laceration. These break-up aftermaths commonly yields trauma and emotional disturbances to those people who experienced such relationships. Some may be a paranoid after a harsh “past”, while some loses their self esteem. A good friendship may be ruined after break-up of the once “friends”. Broken trust sprouts out afterwards and distorts the scene of the once friendship one treasured for years. In other cases, some even find another people to serve as the filling of the “hole” he/she has inside him/her and reflect what the past relationship made him experience.



As said a while ago, relationships are erratic we do no know its length but still we can prolong its “terms”. Most of us know that a long term relationship is the one everybody wants but it is not as easy as reading this essay and finishing up to the last character of it. You must act for the preservation of your relationship such as knowing the legality of a relationship of yours. Ask you parents or to whom it may concern about it. A relationship that is illegal is an unstable one. You don’t know when your cover becomes blown and it would be tragic to end like that. Aside from ending up with a damaged relationship with your partner, you would also gain broken trust from you parents.



Also, remember not to have a relationship that you cannot maintain. Do not enter into a relationship when you know in yourself that you are not sincere or if you lack time. Relationships need time for it to be fortified. Some break-ups are caused by lack of quality time of the lovers with each other. If possible, avoid long distance relationships. These kinds of relationships often lead to unfaithfulness of one to the other.



Another thing in a relationship is acceptance. First, identify what characteristic you want in a person. Don’t expect too much from people. Remember the fact that we, human beings, are not perfect. Also consider the negative traits one may have and be willing to accept them. When you already found someone you think that is “qualified” for your acceptance, do not rush on impulse into a relation. Instead, know him/her more. Investigate about his/her background, family, real attitude and other information that would help you when you are already in a relationship. If it is really acceptable, then continue. Just be yourself and don’t try to wear “masks” just to impress the person you want to be with. It is for him/her to know and accept who you really are. Don’t rush; give yourselves time to think about what you are doing.



Don’t lose hope if you find the person unworthy of your acceptance. It is good for you to know that you are not compatible before starting a relationship. Pursuing to such relationship would often yield to numerous quarrels and would soon lead to a break-up. Besides, you can still be friends. Also, there are still other people who are worthy for you. Just continue to search for Mr. /Ms. “Right”. It may be difficult to find another one, but it is worth waiting for.



Next thing is when you are in a relationship, talk about what you expect from your partner. It may be queer to ask it straight, but you may try to use indirect ways to convey your question. A simple ”Why do you want me?” may do the job. Remember what he/she wants and do not break his/her expectations. Also, talk about the future. Do not just focus on what you have now for it will soon pass; plan for your goals, as a pair and as individuals. Use these to motivate yourselves in maintaining your relationship.



Consider also recording what you achieved such as monthsaries, birthdays and other special days you have shared. Make sure that you celebrate them, as much as possible, together. Do not record the problems that you encountered; remember how to forgive and forget, because if you record those problems, it would pile up to be a reason to say “I had enough!” This may lead to a break-up. Besides, the Bible says that “love keeps no record of wrong.”



Relationship also has its rules; it also has its do’s and don’ts. Do remember what your partner expects from you and what he/she dislikes in your relationship. Remind yourself to maintain trust, loyalty, truthfulness, patience and understanding in your relationship to your partner; be considerate on what he/she feels. Also, maintain the joy in your relationship. If you are a guy, then you may have surprises that would make her happy such as treating her for a bowling game or giving her something new that she would surely appreciate.



Love is like a bird; when you take it for granted, it will escape; when you hold it to tight it will die. Do not expect to much from your partner; let him/her do what he/she wants. Do not always impose to him/her your desire for it would lead to quarrels. Just let it the way it is. Remember, it should always be a give and take relationship. Do not engage to certain acts that are considered to be “below the belt”; just enjoy what a relationship has without crossing the borders.



Prevention is better than cure. It is better to do what you think is right before it is late where there are already numerous quarrels that would soon be a break –up. Remember the rules of your relationship and do not break it. These are just some of the guidelines on how to preserve your relationship to make it a long treasured one. Choose using both your brain and heart; do not make rush decisions especially when starting a relationship. Remember the fact that the one you need is someone who you can call not only “ideal” or “mine” but “ideally mine”. Record what you had achieved and cherish your moments together. Try to follow the do’s and don’ts of your relationship. Remember how to forgive and forget in every mistake. Make it a worthwhile relationship; make it glamorous as how love is; make it the best relationship your life has ever experienced.

I hate this life of mine.
Hate this mind on mine.
If thr aint perfection.
I aint gonna fucking live.
Im so disturbed.
So upset.
Yet all i get? NTH.But i wanna believe.I wanna live in my dream world still.
When i understand u, will u be thr to understand my plight too?
If its a no, dont give me some big talk bout being contend.
I cant be contend not bcos i wan more frm u.
But bcos i wan more frm myself. Before i can ask for anything great, i'd have to be great too.
Yeah this will be instill in my mind for as long as i live.
So my goal now is to be better.
Dont Obstruct Me.

Dating baby on a wkday seems to be sth so faraway till today :)On a supposingly blue monday took us to town and chased all the blue-ness away.caught Orphan and we really like the movie loads!Felt really happy going on a quiet 1 on 1 date and am really contend =)Spend ultra quality time wif baby and im sure he is jus as glad as im.Well, although my wkend was sucky due to the fact i actually missed Cosmic gate @ Zouk but also baby was away for AHM.Damn.how bad can it be man.But aft indulging in self pity OVERLY since sat night, i finally got really happy today and i can say aug have alr started looking good!!Although i'll be missing Sander van doorn on 22nd @ Zouk and Aly &fila on 29th @ Zirca, its all worth it cos my bday is gonna be a blast &thanks baby for doing so much =) i'll keep my promise and pls be happy yeah?LOVE U SWEETHEART!

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Last day in school was real fun but sad to say its all coming to an end.
gonna miss u guys so much man.
all the joy and fun we shared this few mths.
although its over all these memories are gonna stay for long.
more photos on my facebook peeps =)

Love you my silly boy.
Although a couple of weeks ago we had a really rough time with alot of misunderstandings and quarrels, we still manage to pull thru :)
Thru all these rocky roads i know more abt u and although i know u have a really foul temper, u have ur soft spot too.
i learn to accept, hang on simply to the fact that u love me and ur love motivates me to manage our rs better.
lets hope things will look better in future.
coming wkend might be kinda spoilt but the extra mon will made it up =)always rmb baby,YOUR THE ONLY ONE FOR ME.&IM THE ONLY ONE FOR YOUloves

SIED VAN RIEL MADE MY NATIONAL DAY SPENT @ POWERHOUSE A FUCKING AWESOME ONE!
jus cant get enough of guest djs coming to spore and spinning great trance.its not only highly addictive, its rewarding too.:)

Kbox at the wee hrs of midnight with baby &sis is LOVE
:)
&thanks sis for the blanket!!
UR SO SWEET LAH!! IM GONNA SNATCH U FRM RYAN!!!
WHAHAHAH

I will nvr get sick of meeting her :)

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THANKS!
:)

Thanks babygirl for accompanying me for shopping session :)
&i really need to curb my spendings.
at least for now.

WE'RE TGT IN LOVE FOR





1YR BABY (:

Night at DBL O
&this is wat i get when i drink too much.
i see red all over.

Click on pic for more details (:MUAHAHAHAHCANT WAIT!

Gripped by fear.
im so afriad when night comes and im too afraid to slp.
super lack of slp is making me feel ill.
how...........
:(

Powerful Opponents is sucha nice drama!
slpless to finish the whole series.
and im so in love with Lee Jin Wook :D

Happy 21st bday baby boy :)
hope i can be the one celebrating your special day every yr with you.
loves

School startsi wan my slp back!!&baby i love you :)

Hope you enjoy a day just for u baby =)
hope ur frens are happy too!
overall it was a success and i thank everyone for making it possible.
thanks munchoon, sis &ryan, kenny, captain &CO etc.
im sure baby is loving his new itouch!
WED IT WILL BE EVEN BETTER!
jus the 2 of us :)
&now the thot of liquor sent chills down my spine.
EEEEUIII!

worked on tue & wed and,
Finally the weekends are coming!
BUT.
it also means school is starting....
AWWWWW THERE GOES MY SLEEP!
i seem to have this love-hate rs with school.
i have awesome company in school and im happy in class BUT AT E SAME TIME,
i dread having to wake up early for 830am lessons and having to be out in the sun when school ends.
SUCKS RIGHT?
although i have alot to grumble, im acutally looking fwd to sth!!
:)
HEHEHEHEE SATURDAY BABY!!
IM SO EXCITED THAT I CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY TO COME LAH!!!
i simply cant contain my excitement :D

HAPPY 22th BDAY FISH!!!
:)
Poor her got so wasted.
the rest of us cont to drink and have fun.
i became really red aft drinkin quite alot and it sucks.
thanks baby for waiting for me outside.thats really kind of u :)
once home, i KO-ed.

Satisfied my vodka craving on a friday night at Holland V :)
MORE DRINKING TMR!!WHAHAHAHA

GARETH EMERY @ ZOUK

The night was FABULOUS.
Enjoyed it to the max!
Great music and its like alomost all the songs he play i know
:)
I WANT MORE OF HIM!

:)

Can someone pls motivate me to study?
i haven even get started with my revision at all!
=(

Start of study break.
MUGMUGMUG!!

When it comes to relationships, Virgo are most compatible with Taurus & Cancer.

The complimentary relationship between earth and water brings about an understanding and easiness in a romantic relationship.

These signs all look for a loving relationship and happy family life.

i believe in horoscope shit and i also choose to believe cos its lik all the articles i read about my sign all matches baby sign =)

im a virgo & he is a cancer.

YAH HAAAA!

have been busy with assignments so im super lazy to blog.

super lack of slp too.

seriously i need a break.

like have a long slp or go out whole week to have some fun.

BUT,

I DONT HAVE TIMEEEE!!!

aft this wk of school is my study brk den EXAMS.

MORE STRESS IS IN FOR ME.

=(

One by one baby's frens enter army
and think baby feels abit lonely now but he still have me!
:)
ME and munchoon cooked a storm for sis and baby =)
PASTA!
baby loves it!!and im gonna learn how to cook better so baby will be more impressed!!WHAHAHAHBABY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!muacks :D

HAPPY BDAY JAKE!
went for his chalet and last min cos baby need to book in on Sun instead of Mon, so we dint stayed over and we went home kinda early.
was feeling unhappy so couldnt really enjoyed.
Thanks baby for being so understanding and sweet to bring me out for a stroll and comforted me. rmb u made a promise under the moon and stars baby.
thanks for being there for me.
like wat i said, ur really a special gift frm god.
and i'll treasure u and keep u dearly by my side.
and i hope i wont be a burden to u my dear.
LOVES
:)

I always feel bad bout myself because I secretly hate myself and all the facade bout loving myslef i claim are all rubbish.
Each and everyday im getting more tired of not being able to accept who i really am.

Stress level only increases as days goes by.
BL & PMPM's assignment due date is drawing real near and yet its still not even half done.
DAMN.
&tmr no school means more free time to do assignments!!
something im happy abt=)
wkends pls come fasterrrrrr
&baby i really wanna grow taller, slimmer, prettier so i can be ur dream girl and not some small girl.
i hate my height but there's nth i can do abt it=(

HAPPY BDAY TO BABY'S MUMMY!!
:)
andhow u find my new heels &skirt?IM SO LOVIN IT BABY!WHAHAHAH

SHOPPING SPREE WITH JOYCE AFT SCHOOL :D
bought a Warehouse skirt for $103 &the heels i've been eyeing for very long.
i realise places like RiverIsland, TopShop &Warehouse's skirt are like so exxxx
but its worth the while :)
I TOTALLY LOVE WAREHOUSE AND RIVER ISLAND CLOTHES MAN!
WANNA BRING THEM ALL HOMEEEE!!!
tmr is baby's mum bday and the start of wkends!!!
WHAHAHAHAH IM SO EXCITED!
baby im so madly in love with you!
:D

HAPPY 10 MTH OLD TO ME &BABY!!
dinner was at manhattan fish mrk @ Central.superb view by the river, great ambience and service BUT SUCKY FOOD.guess alot arguements that Fish &Co being better is true.and dont think we're gg back there to dine.small lil walk, small lil chats is all we need.:)talking bout how baby would miss me in e past and how i find him so retarded feels really sweet.wat baby say is true, i shld be happier now cos at least i can recieve his love and love him openly.thanks baby for the wonderful night, wonderful memories down this 10mths.i feel like a pampered princess with u sweets!&ur also so damn pampered by me!can i be ur ''PSLE girl'' forever?can i always stay adorable in ur eyes?LOVE YOU BABY, & IT JUS GOES STRONGER.

HAPPY BDAY DARREN!
Fun with funny ppl and poor baby lose quite alot at gambling.
hahaha
guess darren the bday boy shld be really happy=)
but im more happy cos.....
IN AFEW MORE MINS TIME, ME & BABY ARE GONNA BE 10TH MTHS OLD!!
WHAHAHAHAHA
TMR IS THE DAY LAH BABY!
:D

School is really getting boring and unbearable.dad is so sweet to fetch bro to school 1st den made a detour home and sent me to school:)finally for once i dont have to reach school so early and stone.else normally aft sendin my bro to CJC at 65oam i'll reach school like 710am,when lessons start at 830am.see how long i have to stone outside and wait for the damn class to open.Damn.assignment due dates for BL and PMPM is getting closer as days pass and the worst thing is i've yet to really do anything.so since tmr i have to lessons, gonna make the best out of the day and get some work done.met munchoon aft school to study and did up some research for my assignments:) see im a good student ok...SUSHI TEI IS LOVEEESO DAMN ADDICTIVE MAN.have been craving it for mths and finally i got it :)den was shopping for darren's bday pressie with baby and co.some unhappiness were called for btw me and baby and i hope things are really gonna get a good turn.baby u know i wont give up unless u really make me lose heart in this rs.

TRANCE ARND THE WORLD WITH ABOVE & BEYOND @ ZOUK

Me,baby,captain &jake totally enjoyed the night.
esp baby i guess haha
and im really glad that i went and hear all my fave tracks spinned.
WHAHAHAHAH
I GOT SHARP EARS TOO BABY!!
im happy cos baby is happy!
&aft zouk me and baby knocked out all e way till nxt day's noon.
but all was worth the while!
:)
and my cute baby took photos with me!!
MUAHAHAHAH DAMN HAPPY LAAAA

Sucky Photos is the word.
see how ugly the pics turn out frm my hp cam.
ARGH.
&Swensen's Eagles is not the place to eat at all.Ex and Sucky food.recently damn lazy to even go online due to hectic life.school stars like 830am and i slp bout 1am.i dont even have time to really sit down and blog.but here im blogging faithfully cos im feeling more energetic today=)&TMR IS ABOVE & BEYOND @ ZOUK!WHAHAHAHAHIM SO EXCITED BABY!

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BACK TO USING THIS NO. PPL!

&my new E71's cam sucks to e core so no more clear nice pics cos i hate blurred images and perhaps im closing my blog down cos i hate to blog without photos.

&&BABY IM SO ADDICTED TO U
I SIMPLY ADORE YOU.

:)

LOST MT HP AGN.
USING BCK OLD NO AFT 3DAYS SO PLS SMS ME @ 94678742 UR NO AND INDICATE NAME PLS.
THANKS BABY FOR THE NEW HP!
REALLY TOUCHED AND SORRY!!
LOVE YOU BABY!!
:)

Met up with my BFF and went iluma to shop cos i need new clothes!!
got a nice flowery dress and a V top for myself=)
happy with my purchases hehes
chatted with meiyun and really felt great cos despite our busy lives we still get to meet and the feeling really rocks :D
nyte was movie with baby and his friends


ANGEL & DEMONS!


3RD MUST WATCH MOVIE THIS YR!!


The movie is based on Dan Brown's book and the movie is jus as gripping as the book. REALLY!
thrilling and interesting but its better if u read the book before cos there're some terms that're kind of out of the world for ppl like us and also the story is rather complicated.
Tom hanks' english is damn good but the accent is might not be acceptable to some ppl so to ppl who can read chinese subtitles, keep ur eyes glued to e screen pls.
rated 4.5 stars out of 5 Weekends with baby ends today and im so sad=(WORST IS TMR 830AM MY LESSONS STARTS!luckily dad is gonna fetch me to school!!MUAHAHAHAbut sucks la my new timetable sucks to e core one sia!!830am to 315pm2 modules BL and PBPM.STRESS.and im need to turn in now so that i can wake up tmr at 545am to prepare!!missing my baby alr man that lil pig is slping alr hehethe thot of seeing him tmr turns me on man!!WHAHAHAHnights world!